I gave you everything, baby, everything I had to give
Girl, why would you push me away?
Lost in confusion, like an illusion
You know I’m used to making your day.
But that is the past now, we didn’t last now
Guess that this is meant to be.
Tell me was it worth it? We were so perfect
But baby I just want you to see
posted before the album was released.
i dont know how to start this but i guess first of all i wanna say that i love each one of you so much.. i want to let all my beliebers know that i havent been myself in a while.. i have been trying hard but its not easy. i know i have met some of u in the past few weeks and havent been the greatest. after shows i go on twitter and i see some of you talking about how you were disappointed after meeting me. i always feel so bad after because i know how much you look up to me. i remember when i first came into this business and was meeting with a whole group of people i looked up to. some were great and im lucky to call them friends today. other people i met.. weren’t nice at all. looking back i know that to some of you now, i look just like those mean ones. i am so sorry. if i could make it up to all of you i would. just please realize that im human and with everything going on in my life its hard to always be in the best mood.
A Lot of you get mad when I do a meet and greet and dont smile in any of the pictures. in my opinion i would rather really show my feelings than have a fake smile. i know i suck at fake smiles lol. if we met and i wasn’t smiling im sorry. it had nothing to do with anyone of you specifically.. just been dealing with a lot.
I try my best every single day to be a good person but lately i can see i havent been. for the past few months everything in my life has been crazy. i have days where im feeling great and everything is good but i really havent been happy since before christmas. I know that sounds crazy but its true. It has nothing to do with any of you i promise. its just that i am a performer but the second i get off stage i do still have a life. not every second revolves around my job lol. i do go through things that im sure you all get. been dealing with relationship problems, fake friends who pressure me to do things, family issues, pressure from the media and so much more all while trying to balance my career.
i dont know where im gonna be in a few years.. i dont know which friends ill still have and that scares me. i look back even one year ago and its crazy how many people have left my life. whenever someone enters my life.. they leave as soon as this attention becomes too much for them.. it sucks because they can leave my life.. but i cant leave my own life. as much as i love what i do and the support i get.. its not always easy. i know what its like to deal with depression.. and you can all picture me sad but i promise when im really sad its 100 times worse than you picture lol.
Like i said.. im young and im learning still.. im going to make mistakes and sometimes i need people to give me space and let me make them on my own.. I dont know where im going with this post but i just wanted to give you some of my thoughts…please respect me and realize that i shared as much as i want to..